People around me keep getting me down. Don’t get me wrong, people have the best of intentions, but I always keep the old saying in mind:

THE ROAD TO HELL IS PAVED WITH GOOD INTENTIONS.

Good intentions are great, and it’s a thousand times better than bad intentions, but really…

I have to spend hours upon hours fixing things gone wrong because people didn’t think things through before acting.

Sometimes I get left out of things because I ask that people be thorough with their efforts, that they think through the repercussions of their choices, decisions, and actions.

After being left out of the loop and seeing the fecal matter hit the rotating air moving device, I usually have ten to fifteen times more work to do, just to figure out what the H-E-Double-Hockey-Stick what went wrong. Usually takes me twenty times longer to actually fix things then.

Important note: I’m not just talking about work here. I’m also talking personal shit. More personal than professional, to be honest.

Here’s my over-powering question, for all the cowards that can’t keep in mind cause and effect: What the fuck are you so afraid of? Why can’t you be honest enough to TALK about what the fuck you’re doing/wanting/needing?

I don’t want philosophical answers, I want thoughtful, reasoned answers from the guilty parties, that remain hidden because I don’t want to be sued.

Questions? Call your local politician, cause I feel I was clear, and don’t feel like lying. Leave that work to the professionals.

I don’t feel like needing to guess at your meaning any more.

Skåll!!

Something has been keeping me from posting, and hasn’t been resolved yet, but I’ve been staying away and holding it to myself for too long. So, here’s a partial post to offer an excuse.

I’m sick of dishonorable behavior in the people around me. Even I have succumbed to it; shame is partially to blame for my blog absence.

I don’t want forgiveness. I don’t want anyone to help prop myself or others up with excuses. I don’t want forgiveness.

Things are hard, and people are taking shortcuts. The easy way. The way that operates on hope, not logic and facts and details.

But the easy way always hurts someone, sometimes only the person taking the easy way, but usually all the people directly involved.

Unfortunately, the easy way usually involves not communicating needs and wants to others involved. Just leaving things unspoken, as understood, when they aren’t just understood.

So, people are just deciding to do things, not talk to people, and not obeying directly visible cause and effect.

I’ve been hurt thrice in the past year and a half by careless, unthoughtful, illogical actions taken by those around me. Each broke my heart. Each landed me deeper in a depression that has seriously taken it’s toll, and not just on me.

I want people around me, and concurrently myself, to start giving a damn about honor, integrity, and doing what’s best WITHOUT screwing ANYONE over, by thinking about their possible actions and their repercussions outside of a moment’s worth of pleasure.

I’d also like it if people would stop thinking with their gut, and just allow their gut to cause doubt, thus encouraging thoughtful review with others.

But that’s asking alot.

Please try. I am, every minute of every day.

Skåll!!!